Let me be emo again.

This has been a mad week of intense study, and more to come. Shan't bore people with details of studying, if you want, just go to any other JC student's blog.

I miss my TWE juniors. Argh, I wanna go back and have fun with them.
I want to have J and gang with me and we'll laugh again.
I wanna have sectionals in classrooms again.
I wanna have saturday band pracs and hang out after that.
I wanna have radical band pracs where people just make music and not hate each other.
I wanna be back in TWE again, ups and downs all over again. Nuts. I can't wait for A's to be over.
I wanna go over to TWE to help out again like I used to.
I wanna wear the TWE blazer and perform as a TWEmasekian.

But I can never do alot of the things there anymore. NUTS. Let's just get the A's over and done with.

Sorry TWE, for missing the Sentosa performance. All right. This blog is reducing to mindless JC mugging and non-worthy posts.

Till a more useful, fruitful and erm..happier time,

Till again.

I was recalling the times I had in JC1, and yet was still close with my gang of friends from my sec school.

Now I hardly ever meet them, what more talk to them.

Somehow, the most sad memory I had, was the one on Chong Hu's birthday, where we stayed over at Conrad's and had dinner. I remember, we all held up glasses, and drank to "forever friends". We, being J, Zat, Alan, Roy, Chong Hu, Eugene and me.

Corny as it may sound, I held on to that thought and that as a real promise. That's why I never believed that those who didn't join us as regular were not part of us anymore, cos I knew there had to be a day that I'll be bogged down by work, school and other commitments to be with the group. That day has came, and it happened quite a while back. I knew I wasn't as close with them anymore, since the awkward silence fell as I sat at the table at Ling's place with them. The strained converstion that never lasted more than 3 exchanges. I only found it comfortable with J and Chong Hu now. J's been a friend and buddy since Sec 1, and all the way thru TWE. Chong Hu's a class buddy, and neighbour. I'm not saying the rest hasn't been thru the up and downs with me, but I have no idea what has actually happened, to come to this.

Maybe its just me. But dudes, tell me, do you think things have changed, or is it me?

I'm guessing its me. Jc has definitely changed me. No more that lil boy that you all knew. But I miss those days. Those sec 4 days. Remember the gang?

Aaron, Weijian, Zhijian, Zat, Guangrong(now Roy), Audrey, Juling, Lynn, Vincent, Eugene, Lee Keng, Alan, Chong Hu and even Joan.

Band, not band, but all friends, buddies. Those saturdays spent wandering aimlessly at Tampines after band pracs, those times before and after concerts, those moments we had at birthdays, sleep-overs, where we made each other feel special, important. But things really changed after we left sec 4 huh.

The only two left in the Gang are J and Zat, no guesses why.

Remmber Celebration Night? OUR celebration night. The one Zat planned for us, the one where we celebrated our joy together, dressed in our best and had one of the best nights in our lives. I can still remember J asking me to go somewhere dark to check whether his glow in the dark gel works, which obviously didnt, haha.

Then there was J's first Christmas party, well, at least the first one for me at his place. All the gifts exchanges and games. Photos and food.

I really miss all of you. I don't care how gay this sound, but I'll give almost anything to have us together as a whole gang again. (Not saying that my Jc peeps aren't wonderful people, but this is a different story eh.)

I'm guessing its not possible anymore. We're all leading lives of own.

Maybe, maybe there'll be a event we can all come together again. Hope it'll feel the same as before.

I'm being melancholic. Tsk. I think if someday I'll read this and laugh at myself. Maybe I won't.

Till again.

When words fail, music speak volumes.

New Radicals--You Get What You Give

Wake up kids ,we've got the dreamers disease
Age fourteen, they got you down on your knees
So polite, you're busy still saying please
Frenemies, who when you're down ain't your friend
Every night, we smash their mercedes-benz
First we run and then we laugh 'til we cry

But when the night is falling
And you cannot find the light
If you feel your dream is dying
Hold tight
You've got the music in you
Don't let go
You've got the music in you
One dance left
This world is gonna pull through
Don't give up
You've got a reason to live
Can't forget
We only get what we give

Four a.m. we ran the miracle mile
We're flat broke, but hey we do it in style
The bad rich, God's flying in for your trial

But when the night is falling
And you cannot find a friend
You feel your tree is breaking
Just bend

You've got the music in you
Don't let go
You've got the music in you
One dance left
The world is gonna pull through
Don't give up
You've got a reason to live
Can't forget
We only get what we give

This whole damn world can fall apart
You'll be ok follow your heart

You're in harms way I'm right behind
Now say you're mine

You've got the music in you
Don't let go
You've got the music in you
One dance left
The world is gonna pull through
Don't give up
You've got a reason to live
Can't forget
We only get what we give
Don't let go
I feel the music in you

Fly high
What's real can't die

You only get what you give
You're gonna get what you give
Just don't be afraid to leave

Health insurance rip off lying
FDA big bankers buying Fake computer crashes dining
Cloning while they're multiplying
Fashion shoots with Beck and Hanson
Courtney Love and Marilyn Manson
You're all fakes run to your mansions
Come round here we'll kick your asses.


This should be the theme song for all students. The song I sing to myself when I feel pissed about work. Don't give up dudes. Remember, we only get what we give. Maybe we give our best, we'll get the best. Maybe.


Till again.

Hiya.


Yep, its me recovering from a long belated update.

So while life's not getting any better in terms of studying and mugging, I treated myself with a well deserved break seeing the long weekend ahead. But work starts tomorrow. Oh well.

My sis's being very grumpy after work. Sounds like me when I come home from a late day of mugging from school. Yuk.

I really have absolutely no idea what to say now, must be a too-long-I-never-blog-then-don't-remember-how-to-thingy. Nuts. Maybe I'll just wish all those who are enjoying the long weekend a fruitful time spent, and happy new year in advance.

Man, I'm really losing my touch. Then again, what touch?

I can't believe I'm already 18 years old now. Loads of responsibilty, so much work to do, so many people to me, so many idiots to diss. Muahahha. Other people's blogs are much more interesting. So go over there already.

Heh.

Till again peeps.


Till again.