How many ways can you say you're pissed?


I can so go down and burn her house, scratch her car and like destroyed the whole place if I'm allowed to.


What in the freaking world is the bloody madhouse woman thinking? This whole issue is making me angry beyond words. And the way some people act is too..what's the word, unbelievable. The whole issue is unbelievable. Ask if you actually want to hear ranting of a severe maniac.

The colours were really brave, the 6 at least, and I applaud their courage, even though its partly their fault. But i don't see the need to inflate this issue into such great proportions. Can I say this, the school is freaking dumb. Dumb's the only other non-vulgar four letter word I can produce.

What I don't know really can't hurt me, and ignorance is really bliss.

Good job the colours, hold on. It would only be empty threats that they're making. They know they can't afford to, not that the HE would not say anything about it.

What can I say about leadership again? Is it nature or nuture? Some people have IT, some people don't. I don't, and I see that fact. How can people be so oblivious to some facts right in front of them? Is it cos they're choosing not to listen, or cos the one who's speaking is a nobody?

Then again, why am I involving myself in such stuff? Sigh. Really, for once I meant that sigh, a sigh of sadness, disappointment and anger.


What an emotional post. Stupid rick.

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* slaps myself*


I just can't get myself away from my blog for more than a week or so. SO, here I am back here to rant and rave and entertain whoever that would derive joy from reading this.


WHEN, will people finally learn that chain emails, chain friendster bulletin posts, chain whatever nutjobs you receive are trash? Like hello, we know that this is the age of technology, but I don't think our dear brothers from the nether world have access to the digital world yet. I'm telling you, its all the fault of The Ring. Once you have ghosts making appearances from TVs, here they come, the rest swarming all over the net. Hello, witch doctors can't curse computers. They probably can't shrink your monitors like they can shrink your already small heads if you keep sending chain letters about how we will not get any love/friends/food/money/things that seem important if we don't repost some mail.

To think we live in a tech-savvy world where people claim they know better. FYIYII(that's for your information you ignorant idiots), friendster is NOT going to close down because people don't repost some notice on their bulletin boards. Hell, if friendster was going to delete accounts, it would be those irritants who go around telling people who evil friendster is.


Maybe I shouldn't be so mean. Let's say something nice about things people do on friendster.

Chants: *NARCISST, NARCISST, NARCISST, NARCISST, NARCISST*

Whoops. Haha.. Naw, who could blame them? How often do you get the chance to post photos of your face, whole face, only the face and nothing else, in all types of poses, namely:

the doe-eyed cutie: you know, those that spreads their eyes so wide its popping out, and pouts and looks like their going to cry..aw~ nuts.

the emo: let's just give and example- hide half face and take shots in sepia or whatever colour modes, don't' forget the definite not looking into camera shot, i.e. into the distance. Don't you just feel sad for them? No one understands them..Let's do it again, aw...nuts.

the neoprintomaniac: how do I say this? loads of neoprints all over, not really narcisstic, but its close. They would always be the ones right smack in the most prominent areas of the shot.

and this one takes the cake, the self conscious aka no self esteem: no picture of who in the world are they. They put some funny pics of cartoon characters, movie stars, some scenes and anyother things they think it represents them other than themselves. Maybe it saves the agony of seeing something blasphemous. Haha.

Ay.. its just me having withdrawal symptoms from not blogging too long. Hur hur.


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-Short break from hiatus-

Insensitivity sucks. I've always shut up when such things were said. I can't now, not that it bothers me. I'm angry, disappointed, pissed, sad and hurt at the same time. So much emotions at the same time, its only so much I can take. I would really have walked off if I could, but it would only worsen the atmosphere there. Ha, stupid me for being sensitive to those around. For what, I really wonder. Buddies and brothers don't say insensitive to each other.

Anyway, I won't be seeing you all for a long long time.

On a whole different issue, we don't owe anyone anything. But that doesn't give anyon the right to show attitude act like a complete fool to us. We are not your friends when you feel like it, strangers when you don't. We are not prisoners to your emotions, and we are not the cause of it definitely, since its not something that you want to share with us either.

Let's just see how strong this "friendship" thingy really is.

-Hiatus again-


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Ok that's it.


I'm going on hiatus. I can't stand the sight of an un-updated blog. Especially mine. So, since I've hardly have the time to do updates on mine, I'm letting it to sleep for a few months/weeks/any other time periods.


So before all ends, at least temporarily, life's been hectic but nonetheless nice. Even though I've just let my dinner burn. Nuts. So its off I go from this blog for a while, and sorry to those who do derive joy or any sort of emotion from reading my blog that I'm doing this. And, by the way, tomorrow's the last day I'm a MJCSB member. Major sigh coming on..


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Once again, good things have to end.



To think we used to be unhappy.

To think we used to be angry.

To think now, she's our friend,

our teacher,

our "second mother".

So with a week or so to go, my term as member in MJCSB will end. That can be read as "Deja Vu from graduation from TWE". Once again, I've got to leave this family I lived and breathed with, even though I've hardly spoken to all of them and maybe they did not know me at all. Some things just don't get forgotton, band camps, late pracs, geting teased during band pracs, performances and all.


So I'll miss being with my section, with JunYang bitching about people, JunWen talking rubbish, Dawn and Siok and Benny laughing our heads off, Justin and his gay ways with me, Cheryl and her San Ba actions, Cherri and her cute laughter and the rest.

Then there's the percussion section whom is like my second section since I played some auxillary for El Cam before.. Yep, Juling, Peiling, Kailing and all the rest who are not -lings. Its like maybe I'm inside them but outside. Then again its just me.

Then there's the A.G.A. Mental mental mental. All I have to say.

Thats the bunch of peeps we all love and laugh with. Hope we'll sit together at prom.


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They did it again.


All the slamming, criticisms, and what nots are springing up everywhere in forums, on blogs, on peoples' mouths and what have you.


Its just sad. The way they put it, its just like what Zat and I discussed, its as though bands are just bands, there is no what so ever musicians involved in the process of rehearsals and practices for the judging. People are so blinded by the vision for a medal that sometimes we forget the people involved in it. Its as though that a bad JC would be doomed to death, and a established and academically-proficient one would reign supreme in all areas. I pitythe judges who are being slammed as well for being deaf or not good enough to judge. Maybe next time these critics themselves shoud be allowed to judge, then we'll understand who's the real adjudicator.


But let these people be. For all we know, they are just sour and bitter over the results. Maybe its time for a reality check for such JCs on how to improve and not be complacent. Let's just wait for the judges comments and work on them.


And if you want to know why I'm saying this, go to the following link to see it.
1) http://info.channelnewsasia.com/bb/viewtopic.php?t=11082
2) http://info.channelnewsasia.com/bb/viewtopic.php?t=10506


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http://animest.org/DSCF1920.AVI

Just click and watch. You'll get what I want to say. Abit unglam though. Special thanks to Baolun, for hosting this up.

http://www.imagestation.com/album/pictures.html?id=2127175725
MJCSB'05 SYF. GOLD.

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I love to read my archives.


To see how I've changed through these few years. And its really great big changes.

Take a read if you have the time.


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I absolutley hate stagnant blogs, and I shan't have a blog that I hate, here's here a simple update.


Besides the band filled week, so much so it has became second home, then again, since when band hasn't become second home? The tension in the band seems to be lifting and falling, people are slightly happier, yet as the day draws nearer, nerves are surely to snap. All I hope that mine isn't one of those which would snap.

Somehow, I realised I've not met up with J and gang for a darn long period of time. And I'm feeling guilty. Since SYF 2005, I've yet to catch up with them. Suddenly I understand why my seniors who went JC hardly ever came back. JC life is darn hectic, not even a single saturday not taken up to return to TWE these days. Need to catch up on life beyond books.

Currently I'm in love with Howl's Moving Castle's soundtrack, and the songs been running through my mind since god knows when. *must get soundtrack..*

One thing that came through my mind between ther breaks of the songs would be how my friendships have went. And all I can conclude, is that I'm sure that JC friends might never be as strong as what I had in secondary school. But from what I've read from blogs, everyone's getting their own lives. Zat has his army life, J has his chem poly life, Roy and his dance/design life, Eugene in faraway SAJC and not updating his blog, Lynn back with her classmates, Zhi Jian away in TJC, Aaron pursuing further music in NAFA, Alan practically lost in space, Chong Hu in limbo too, though he's just few blocks down the road. Its like a cross road when we met, but a spilt road where we left off, at least for me. Somehow, people just come into our lives and others leave. Now I still have Juling left, but togther with another group of people, Joel, Peiling, Mengyang, Baolun, Benny, Dawn, Sioky, Christopher and Justin. Someday, we're going to spilt our paths in life.

Darn.

You just can't miss a person too much. Its just so. Emo emo emo.

Anyway, let's just hope its as good as it gets. To think about it, I've never had a real fight with someone bad enough to lose a friend. Rather, its just through nothingness that I lost them. The irony. And Joel, if you're reading this, maybe some motivation to the band may do some good, especially if we aren't getting any from anyone else, and KT's not the best option either.

I've got a poem title in mind, Anything But 18, and its under construction now. Watch out for this one.


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