Two years ago, on this very day, I asked someone could I be her boyfriend.


Two years later, I finished reading a book entitled " A Walk to Remember."


Yes, its the one by Nicholas Sparks, and its a darn sad book, though I've never teared a single moment reading the book, just like how I didn't tear abit when we ended our relationship. I wonder now, what was it that we had when we were together? Was it really, just love, or just pure interest we had in each other? Maybe partly, partly not, no one can really say I guess, not even myself, nor her.

But one thing's for sure, and it was mentioned in the book as well, which was one of the factor that made me write this post, is that we have to learn something when we walked into one relationship, and another when we walked out of it.

I wonder again, what did I learn from that?

Frankly, I realised I wasn't willing to sacrfice, and I wasn't ready. I'm just too young, too caught up in the world to focus on one, but its not an excuse.

Yeah, there were times when things when sour, tears shed. These are the memories I want to forget, but once again, I was reminded by the book, that if I forget the bad memories, the joyful ones would somehow be gone as well. I guess that its pretty much like that in alot of things. You need pain to savour pleasure, uglyness to appreciate beauty, failure to enjoy success, enemies to be grateful for good friends and such.

It's been two years since our seperate routes, though we've met, but never really exchanged words. Loser me. Question that lingered on: am I really over it?

Guess so. Pretty much. Hope so.

And so I realised, life goes on. We get numbed by work, pain and uglyness, we forget ourselves. Time does not go back, but I think I'll try my best to undo as many mistakes I did. Oh well.

I really have no idea what this post is about, but I just had to type all these inside out. I realise how many people will be reading this, but I guess, they can't do much about it except make remarks about what a person I am. Like Xingwen says, Hohum.


Till again.

Now, since friendster has increased the number of photos to be put up, I sense a large no. of pirating my photos to be put on others profile.


But it also means I can be more narcisstic and can put up loads more photos of myself. Heheh..


Work, work more work. Ladida, econs econs econs, slides slides slides. I'm going nuts. But! I'll always squeeze in some time for some gaming. Be it the-very-good-way-to-kill-boredom-Maple-story, and my anciently(no such word kids.) old PS which it wheezing its last breath, its still a good way to destress. But I will never say no to my undying love for either a Xbox or a PS2. Kind souls, please please?


And one more thing, people who type "come" and "cum" seems wrong. But that's just me.

Before I forget, can I list down things I want for my birthday? Its never too late right? heh.
1) the naruto kohana headband!! saw it last night, looks good on a bag.
2) some new earphones. Those earphones with headphones. Geddit?
3) maybe finally someone can get me my picture and puzzle frame..
4) Michael Buble's new album..?

Pretty please?


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Scratch and Yawn.


Yesterday, since its already past midnight, had me reading out Summer's Bliss to the audience in the library. No I didn't win the competition, but three cheers for Juling for won second prize!! And then I had to mumble and swallow lots of words, so a good chance wasted. Tsk. Slap me.


My mom got this ultraviolet light thingy that suppose to kill mossies, and it does!! Darn cool. Coupled with my new hobby of spraying and exterminating mossies, erh mosquitoes in case you don't know, the number of them plauging my room is not decreasing. I kill around 2 daily, but I still get bitten. Darn. But its real fun to kill those buggers. Swat.


Haven't had the appetite for dinner these days. Not a good sign.


O.C's in a few days time. Like every little/major event, it'll come and it'll pass. I'm just excited to wear my white shirt. Not that its real nice or what, but I love wearing long sleeved shirts. And I'm having my hair cut later. Real short, like how I had it last time. Heheh, post a photo or something.


Oh, I would really want to ignore her, or him, but this cosmicblush tagger is really, funny. Didn't I state my location on my profile, so does that mean that she/he will kill me soon? Woo. But I guess its prob some kiddo, like how I was when younger. Her blog is at here, take a look. Cat's my friend, by the way. Tsk tsk.


Not in a very poetic mood these days.


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2nd post for valentien's day now.


So here on V'day, MJC was flooded with gifts giving and songs singing. I for one, yes, I'm still lamenting about the loss of not getting gifts. Ha, I can't expect much when I don't give much. So here I am, blogging, having dinner at home, and soon to be drawing circles for tutorial soon. Such is the life of a JC student.


I want my trumpet concerto too.


And I realise, next to stupid people, mosquitoes are the next living things I hate the most.


For one, you can scream your head off at a stupid person, and the most he can respond, but if you scream you head off at a mosquito, nothing happens.

Number two, you can easily slap a stupid person, but not a mosquito.

Number three, stupid people don't buzz by your ears when you sleep.


But the only thing that stupid people and mosquitoes have in common, is that both of them don't seen to buzz off, and they love sucking your blood. And they are a result of itches in the ass.


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I hope you don't mind...


How wonderful life is, since you came into my world,
It became a better place now as it slowly uncurls.
I hope you don't mind,
For you are always the one ever so fine.

Love is a many splendid thing,
Though sadness accompanies the joy it brings.
I hope you don't mind,
On this day, please be my valentine.


Inspired by Moulin Rouge, here's Vday poem to all, esp the the 4 roses I gave out.
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This is the funniest link to my site ever!!


http://202.43.196.230/language/translatedPage?tt=url&text=http%3a//rixen.blogspot.com/&lp=en_zt&.intl=tw


MY LARD!! My site in chinese!!
Look at the translation for "summer's bliss", and all those little stuff. Its just darn hilarious.


Anyway, tomorrow's V'day, aka D'day for singles, or for people who's going to make a move. So D'day either Doomsday, or The Day. Prices of flowers are jacked up like hell, everyone's selling flowers on street, people approaching me to get a flower for my girlfriend when I have none, ah.. such is the sweet true meaning about Valentine's Day.


No wonder some people hate Valentine's Day (minus the fact that they're single and no one's going out with them.)


So, the chinese new year's been a nice one for me, lots of fun and good food, even though I didn't eat much. I'll try to get some pics of the party I had the night before. Time to study for Geog test. And dinner.


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click on the link below to view all pics:
http://www.imagestation.com/album/pictures.html?id=2130882631

I look exceptionally ugly in those pics..


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I could bitch about me needing to get abit fatter, or rather alot fatter, but due to sensitive issues, I shal not.


But CNY's been always the same, loud, racious(?) and always the event/highlight, not the angbaos, but the gambling. Heh.


Not much photos I took, but I guess tomorrow's perf at Istana would be pictureful, even though the management did piss me off abit. Maybe its just being an alumni, you're not totally part of them anymore, they don't really bother about you. Things don't get through to you, people ignore you, etc etc.


But, I still lay my loyalty towards TWE, and I hope it'll be worthwhile.


I wonder if I should go for the Brisbane tour. Reasons not to include:
1) $$$$...2000.
2) J's not going, means not fun.
3) Ling and Zhenghong maybe not going too.
4) Prelims..

Darn, really really darn. Someone, please convince me to go. I want to go on this trip badly. Whiny whiny me.


So, while it's not past midnight yet, happy chinese new year, and do not take too much goodies that you loose your voice/throat/self/virginity. Accidents do occur.


Oh, (yo)people, reunion lunch I cant make it on sat, got band practice. Sun??



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Summer's bliss.


Though the hands of time passed by into another phase,
Yet you never changed, still the one, filled with grace.
Your smiles are always warm, but now sadly missed,
Bestowed upon us, your summer's bliss.


Comforting and mesmerising, your eyes shone with passion,
Never once you doubted me, and blessed I am, in confessions.
Like a dream you came and left into my life, now which I sorely miss,
The time you gave me, your summer's bliss.


Not once I've imagined that I'll be lost by gazing,
Into those eyes, deep, fiery, so amazing.
Like stars dotting the velvet sky, joy I felt and now desperately miss,
The love we shared, your summer's bliss.


Days passed, and things happened,
Lives changed, people forgotten.
I would never forget when tears were shed yet brought away just by a kiss,
The pieces now lay broken, hoping to be fixed by your summer's bliss.


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These days in school, things have been pretty weird.


Big animals have been seen approaching students.


Monkeys



Sheeps


And yet this cute kitten is left alone.


Very Weird.


Some students from other JCs have been spotted touting in MJC, asking them to buy tickets to their own college carnival.


Not say I want to say ah, but this is absolute rubbish. To think its one of the better JCs in the east, and yet they're doing such things. Not that I'll stoop that low to sell any of my tickets for any events.


Oh well.


In other news, something beautiful just made its way to MJCSB,


Darn shiny ah.


Oh that so reminds me of my days as QM in TWE, when I could see all the new instruments when they arrive. Those were the days huh.


Catherine just placed a comment in my imagestation album, specifically, the SYF 2003 one. Yes, it is very memorable for all of us. Cliche as it sounds, it seemed to be just yesterday, those endless practices and fun and whatever we went through. Cat, you won't be forgotten, nor anyone else within the SYF batch 2003. Its been two years since that turning point of TWE's life. Now TWE's blossoming and prospering (very chinese new year phrase) let's pray that all's well, and would definitely end well.


So now its MJCSB's turn to attend the band judging. Pressure's up, and its not even very near the judging yet. Our goal may seem abit too high, but its not attainable. I can sense another TWE success..And really, Ms Sia isn't that bad, not always at least.


And yes, to promote one's blog on MSN is quite a good way, but please, at least have readable blogs. Don't be one of those online space wasting blogs which talks about daily life and how mundane and crappy things can be.


Benny, you're loved by all of us, really. As much as this may sound gay, we appreciate you in more ways than one.


Till again.