after a long long stop to my uploading of pics to my imagestation album, here I am, back again with pics of the be yourself day we had in Mjc. Click the link at the side, or here to view it.

Some fun pictures for you all to have a good laugh. Enjoy.



Start panicking.



Totally not funny. Uhuh.



Joker to Penguin: "Now we know where he's hiding.."



You heard them, stop shooting the kids.



This is just wrong.. plain wrong.

Uhuh..


I'm currently watching or listening to Fear Factor cos I'm typing here, thus not being able to watch the screen. Duh. Ya, anyway, it seems like the women there are screaming their head off, and some goes "OH GOD!! OH GOD !! GOD!!", maciam(like) having orgasm.. or so what they say la. Very Disturbing.

Somehow, I feel that I'm damn sad. Like I can give people advice, but I can't take any of those for myself. Doh.


Ok, update on what's going on in JC life for me:


Workload wise, it hasn't gone down, and its slowly creeping higher and greater. Blegh.


On to more interesting stuff, I had a GP Oral Presentation, and well, it pretty much sucked, since the teacher didn't have good comments for me, or I didn't remember any. I pretty well screwed up my question and answer part when he asked: " what are the national values?". Well since I included them into my slides, I should know them right? Wrong. I had no idea what weere they except something on cohesion. So I naturally did the most natural thing. Look blank. And yeah, he gave me a second chance, asking me about some open ended thing, and I thought I handled that pretty well. Oh well. Life's like that. Sucky.


And yeeyup, somewhere in next week or the one after that, MJC will be holding the "be yourself day", and we cant really be ourselves beacause the school decided that we would be ourselves by either being blue or an old fuddy duddy. Translated from Rixen's sarcasm to normal english, it means that we are having two themes, True Blue where we would have to dress in all blue, or dress up in retro style. Well, I'm not really against it, but like "WHAT AM I GOING TO WEAR?" Heck, I've nothing retro. No bell bottoms. No polka dotted shirts. No afro hair. No what nots. Shucks. Gotta lend somehow. Its going to be a photo worthy day. Heh.


I think, you know after attending workshops and all, one thing that they don't teach is how to really maintain your composure and temper when you are a leader. Well defintely, one must not be sarcastic just because you think it'll help the group. Once, or twice is fine. But too many of that, its wrong. Sarcasm is the last thing that your team needs, what they need is your support and assurance that thing will go well. The leader should also understand that not everyone is as effective and productive as he is. If he can do something, there is a reason why the other isn't able to do it. Another advice I would give, is to chill. Deadlines are set to make sure that things are done, not to panic and push your team mates. Not to stress you out, and to destroy your confidence in your group. A leader should never bring his/her members down for the sake and hope that it will motivate them, for usually it brings about the opposite. I wonder. If one is a leader because he has the ability or he is the leader because he was made due to lack of understanding, and his over-bearingness(?)? Or is he a leader because he has the post and is made to do it? One should not use the disabilties of one to shut them up or to cover his own disabilities. As much as it is true, personal attacks doesn't seem to be the nicest thing. But then again, who am I to say. Heh.


So after that long post of being a leader, I'll now get off the com and study.. I've a test tomorrow. But I do recommend my classmates and people who can read between the lines (not literally please) to read it. It'll make some sense. If not, ask me. I'll either tell or not. Heh..


No offence really.


Till again.

Icthy bitchy.


I tell you its fate. Kekang ah, your friendster account is not being approved by my account. Not that I refuse to be your friendster friend, but its just simply refuses to acknoowlege. So after my umhpteen time of approving, I decided to decline. But still it refused to budge. So pardon me. Its not me being mean, but its friendster. Maybe its fate. Heh.


Freak man, I absolutely hate pop-ups. They blardy helly lag my com, makes my song jam and ends up having weird songs going like " Caroline! Caroline! Caroline!" x 1000 times. Its that irritating. What's with pop-ups relating to getting attcahed and meeting people??? For the millionth time after clicking "NO!!!", I decided its a sign from heaven that wanting to get attached is very irritating, and refusing it is just as irritating. Argh.. here it comes again! No, I do not want to know more people, be it chinese, malay, german or bangala...


My house is having a mosquito party of some sort, and I'm the main course. I'm being bitten everywhere that is not covered by clothes, and even some covered, i.e. thighs, not anywhere else. So I'm left scratching myself all over like some blasted monkey with fleas that are causing welts, and my bites will cause welts if something is not done. Death to mosquitoes!! I'll poke them in the eye if I can, with their stupid bloodsuckers. I'll be donating blood next week k, so stop taking anymore from me.


ZAT!!! Our dear zat is leaving tomorrow and he claims that he hasn't seen me for two weeks. Eh, only 4 days can? Ya la, I do miss you, and I'm sorry I can't see you off. But have a good time at the army ya? When you coming out, I'll be there!(if they allow that is.) Man, it'll be so so so so so so long later, two weeks? Shucks, So much would have happened by then. I'll probably already be expelled and Roy and Joan prob already got married by then, and J would have been a millionaire , Chong Hu a loanshark, Alan a pimp(=p joking!!), no a hotel manager for J, Eugene still a bitch and all.


For the 8th time tonight, I'm disconnected from the net. BLARDY HELL.


One of these days, I'll explode, and when I do, don't be shocked. I warned you. Heh.


Till again.

"Thrust is a mutual thing and without thrust how are you all going to be together?"


Haha.. I did not type that. Thrust me. Bwahah..That's so mean of me, but I cant help laughing.


Anyway, yesterday was a fantabulous day! Details please refer to Eugene's blog..That's Eugene Lim ya. (this is a note to my Mj friends reading this post. =) )


Love is such a wonderful thing to be in ya? Ask our lovebirds and they'll tell you. Its like melting chocolate, warm and sweet and leaves you asking for more. Ah.. Those were the days. Heh.


Frankly la peeps, tell me what is respect?


Respect is not talking. Respect is not mixing around. Respect is not being nice alone, and definitely not returning a birthday present. I'm not trying to evoke another round of furies, but I'm trying to make sense. Respect is gained, and someone definitely has gained our respect, especially mine. Respect is listening, acknowledgement, following and giving attention. So how have you respect your seniors tell me? Talking to them? Mixing with them? If so, I conclude that we have very different definitions of respect. A culture that has been in this family is mutual respect, and that's what it so important and makes this family a family. We do not question unnecessarily for the fun of it, and we pay attention when instructions are given. An occasional joke is fine, but nothing of the overboard. Its is true that seniors have a certain amount of privilege, but don't forget that it is earned too, like respect itself. If you want us to respect you, show us and earn our respect. I would respect you as a junior, but for me to respect you as a twemasekian, earn and fight for it. Not everyone can be one. It is a privilege to gain. And I personally think you've got a long way till you get there.


What's this I hear about the passion for music? Where is it? If you think just going to band every practice is having passion for music, thank you for being naive. If you think that seniors because by having friends outside the band and thus are not committed to band, once again, thank you for being simple minded. If you think that only practicing when you are supposed to be is passion for music, thank you for being an ignoramus. If you think the band is where it is because the seniors were just lazing around and have fun, and hardwork was only done when a SYF judging is coming or when a concert is coming up, I think you don't fit to be a band member.


What you're wearing, the t-shirt and the award we have pain-stakingly gotten wasn't a day and night thing. If you all know that you that what you're seeing is the rainbow, work to maintain that rainbow. We all had our humble beginnings. Have yours. The band survived with only fifteen members because of him. If we have a thousand of you and without him, you'll still die. Don't think you can help continue this family yet. You've got a long way kiddo.


Love and passion are not words to be spoken. Grow up, or remain forever spastic( I love this word!).

Sorry, Roy, for yelling. Been on a pretty short fuse these days. You're still da man.


Till again.

I don't have an attitude problem, you have a perception problem.


Man I love this quote/phrase/whatever you call it.


"Cos obviously, she's out of my league, I'm wasting my time cos she'll never be mine and I know I'll never will be good enough for her.."- Obviously by Mcfly.


I figured out something through all my emo-ing these days and with some help from a few msn chats or smses here and there. Credits go to Roy, Ling, Viv, And Sihui. Its an entirely different post from here now on.


People like us.


I like to think of the place around me with two types of people.

People like us, and people like them.(viv can relate ya..)

1) P.L.U(people like us) are totally emo and sentimental people. They are those who hold on and reminisces(?) on the past far too much. They are the type who after a relationship ends still harbour hopes and wonder why and stuff like that. They feel a deep sense of loss and constantly have hopes for something better. They keep reminders and figures of remberance for the lost one, and would wallow in self-despair in alot of times. Sad case ya.. but such people are plentiful.

2) P.L.T(people like them) are people whom P.L.U love and lost. They are the ones who move on quickly after a relationship and either forget totally about the P.L.U or find a new love. Thing is, P.L.T are a wonder and mystery to P.L.U. And P.L.U needs lessons from P.L.T on how to have a life after a break up or something like that.


So what's the moral of the story?


Should P.L.U get together and P.L.T get together, or should both types of these people get together?


Then again, there's two other type of people in the world too, people I like and people I hate, but that's a story for another time.


Till again.

As I'm awaiting my parents to come and meet my teacher for the meet the teacher session, I'm currently rotting away in Mj Library. First post to be typed here.


Been in a bad mood these days. Must be the hormonal changes. Or it could mean I'm getting a period anytime soon. Better have something handy just in case.


Currently, there's an uproar about some article written online about a particular group of people who seem to be greatly offended. Well, who wouldn't be? Words like "childish" are written and references are made. But sad to say, maybe this is something that has been waiting to happen. I agree that if only he is the only one in the community that feels that way to the particular group of people, he would the one in the wrong. But in this case, that isn't how it is. Apparently there are more people who have the same sentiments towards them. So how is it that one group of people could have resulted in such an effect that lead to such "disaster"?


Case study time.


In my time, things were much simpler. Instructions were given, instructions were taken and worked on. Things either work out right or wrong, good or bad. There was no such complexity or whatnots. Call us mindless, but following is a path before one can understand and lead. So we followed, and learnt. Through time, there were unhappiness, but settled in the end. We didn't have any unneccessary(?) or petty quarrels and dissing of people on online websites that seemed to be a "cool" thing to have cos everyone has one, and yet content wise it just sucks. People say they don't care. Right. Tell me if replying to what one said is caring about about the issue? Tell me if dissing back the person in a uncivilised and grostequese(?) writing is not being bothered?


Kids. Really just kids.


For starters, one should not be thinking of getting thanks from anyone. That's something no one gets in the real world. The only nice people who would say thanks is me. Heh. Next, don't be petty. I believe in karma. What comes around goes around. That's right. But doing the same thing the person isn't exactly going to help. Hate begets hate. Don't hate. Poke them in the eye instead.

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time: 5.14pm

Yeah, continuing from where I left off.


So why this trouble of dissing each other? It isn't going to make anyone a better person or feel better if you retort and get the last laugh. Most of the time, people who regard you as a fool who is petty, childish and any other word that you think this post is trying to point at you. If you think it is, its probably is. =)

About the pretty bad mood these days, flaring up for no good reason. And most of the time after that I feel bad. But I'm wishing to let loose all in one shot and been done with it once and all. Does that make sense?


So, after the meet the parent session today, it went pretty funny. Firstly, it wasn't anything bad. And according to my teacher, I had praises from all the teachers who taught me. And I was a very good boy in class, focused and all. Ha. Told you so. And in my first time in my life, I recieved a "excellent" conduct with a "keep up the good work" comments when I had failed overall. Real funny.


I finally found a theme song for myself. Its "Obviously" by McFly. Go take a listen. You'll get what I mean.


Till again.

Its been long since I've felt like crap.
[Let me rant for once, please.]


Currently, I'm feeling down, more down then I've ever been in months, since you know when. Frankly, I realised how I've been hiding myself from me for so long. People who hate me, diss me, really, I do bother. I may not be making sense now, but its the feeling of being nothing that's coming over me. Must be the coming weekend blues.


Yes I do suffer from inferiority complex. I belittle myself from things that I know I just might be able to do. I refrain from being or doing what I can achieve. I'm just pissed ay myself now. I can't believe what an arse I was in the past, what I did and I didn't do. I feel inferior to all around me, unless its someone who's really not worth my bother, other than that everyone seems better than me. Well really, who isn't? I need constant reassurance, constant reminder that I'm not the only idiot around.


I really feel like crap. I feel that I'm a disabled one. Not able to help or aid anyone. I feel that what I did was complete rubbish, and I should have been a better person. This feeling of regret is overwhelming. I can't manage the disappointment and things happening.


People, don't worry. I'll be fine once I have a good night's rest. Which is something I really never had since school started.


Till again.

Annoucement.


[Problem Fixed ...]


Last night at Juling's house was fun. Can't wait for the pics to be out. You know what I mean. Its been so long since I had such a good laugh..


This rocks.


Till again.