worst feeling in the world, is not falling out of love.


it is to have a sore throat.


kill me... forgot what to blog again. someday it'll get back to me. till then, let me sleep.

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flute? right. told you it was my dream instrument?


concert was last night. may post some pics up. enjoy anyway ya.

guess who has the longest comment tag on our blogs??


not weijian, not zat, not me, not roy.


but alan! its was long ago emo post. with forty five comments, including one audrey's, three daryl's, seventeen weijian's, eighteen alan's(with 8 repeated ones) and one zat's and two kian beng's and two privates. wow. am i bored or is this exciting piece of news.

this is me now, in jc 1. see the big diff? i feel weirid...('~')putting my face up here, but what the heck, i'm bored.

this is me, sec one, four years ago...

G# minor - You are not totally happy, and you know
it. At least you are trying to do something
about it. You like to think and create to try
and sort out your problems. Keep going the way
you are, and you will soon be on speaking terms
with your demons.


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i'm currently wedged between fear and excitement and confusion and a little pissiness.


let's start with the good news. as you all can see... i can post photos now~! its been something that i've want to do since god knows when, so maybe no more imagestation, and all will be here, right in my blog. woohoo, three cheers and a yeap! imagine the endless possiblities i can do with pictures.. no more endless nights captioning them, direct referal to the pics, like they say, a picture paints a thousand words. so there =)


ok, so i left school early today and visited the doctor. it was at singapore general hospital. it was a long journey, mood was generally fine, except for being a little sleepy which leads to grouchiness, till my mom and i boarded the shuttle bus to get inside the compound. so here comes the bus, and so we boarded. we were the last two, and we saw two seats at the end. of course we went to the end, but little we knew, a man decided to sit there instead. then, a horrible hacking coughing wheezing indian lady who was spitting her guts out on her way to the bus stop (we were behind her initially) boarded the bus too even though the driver told her its full. so she happily sat down on a seat in front which was empty. my mom and i didnt notice that seat. since we couldnt sit, so while we were trying to get down the bus, the driver informed us that we could not stand cos its dangerous. fine, since we were already getting down, it was ok. until this stupid bitch started saying "cannot stand on the bus, just now got seat in front dont want to seat, told you so. cannot stand on the bus"


i was like (to myself) "who the hell is she to tell my mom and me anything? like hello, we can read,listen and understand that we cant sit on the bus. cant she freaking see that we were trying to get down the bus when we realised we couldnt get a seat? being in quite a bad mood now, i said loudly to my mom while glaring at that bitch: "aiya, no seats we can see. the most we dont board this bus la, no big deal what."


freak la. who the hell is she to tell us anything when she was so happily seated in her own seat? like hello, you didnt bloody say a single thing to us, so what crap are you spouting from that mouth of yours? bitches like her deserve to end up like that old indian woman, but worse. they'll have to be impotent, so they wont have kids to look after them, unwanted by men(of course, who likes bitches like her), and balding.


anyway, when inside the hopistal, we proceeded to register. freak. the queue was exceptionally long. i waited for.. around an hour and a half for my turn, and another 45 mins for my boking of my other appointment. man, it was flooded with old people and other poor people like me. its weird to see so many people in a hospital. its almost like that there're so many sick people in a day.


so i got my appointment. its somewhere next week, and the other one is the week after that. that means i'll be missing my class trip to tioman. and maybe the band camp. argh.. its not exactly a fun thing happening. its abit depressing to know about it. no i'm not dying, no where serious. but somehow i missed the days when i had someone to comfort and care dearly, and do the same to me, especially now. ya i know my friends can do the same, but it isnt.


on to another topic. freak la. i cant stand people who do well for exams and claim that it isnt good. like hello. scoring a2s and b3s and only a single c5 arent exactly what normal people call bad. like please shut up. there people doing worse off than you, and it doesnt help that you're lamenting about your horrible results.


jc life is fine, except for a few exceptions.


there two people who i know.


both are girls.


and both are weird.


no.1
let's name her. brock. somewhere there..she looks like him. in the ocular area.
so this girl, is not like a girl. or maybe, is tooo girl. hmm you decide after reading what i have to say. one, she talks damn f*rking loudly, show off her freaky big mouth. like thanks, but we're not your dentists and thus there's no need for us to see your dental proflie yeah? two, whine. whine. whine. whine. can you shut up? its an unsolved mystery how can anyone sit beside you for econs. whine whine whine, on and on about how you dont understand, how you can catch what the lecturer is saying. whine whine whine on and on about hwo you are trying your best and yet you cant achieve good results, how you think you're the worst amoing the whole class, how much clever is someone else, and compare it with yourself. oh shut up already. if you spent more time thinking, and maybe if you could, really study, you could get somewhere. out of my sight.


no.2
hm.. lets call her, tissue. why? the first time i saw her, she had some small pieces of tissues up in her nose. like ew. ok, moving on. she has this weird sense of humor, saying things that are absolutely, totally, really not funny. yes i know, its you, you're going crazy(more like gone crazy already.) getting stressed, but please. the world is not about you. please dont torture other nice people who hang around you with your falt out cold "jokes", if thats what you call them. and please for your own sake. stop wasting your pen ink by scribbling "stupid stupid stupid x 100000" times on paper because you are pissed. i'm sorry for you getting piss, but the scratching on paper is distracting me from doing work. so ya, stop.


one more.
last night we had band practice. let me paint you a scenario.
band is playing. conductor is conducting. conductor stops at bar 89. player who is suppose to come in at 91 obviously doesnt play anymore.


what's wrong in that scenario?


read this one, another scenario.
section is spilt into two rows, with few players in front, and the rest behind. players infront happen to posess vavle oil. player behind needs oil. player in front passes the oil to the player behind, resulting in being late for coming in player's part. this is player's first time being late.


what's wrong in this again?


in the 1st one, its wrong(not my definition), because we're suppose to play. i dont understand it at all, cos its written in the unwritten law of music, that play only when the score indicates. no? so player gets scolding, even got threatened to be asked to get out. whatever.
in the 2nd one, its wrong(not my definition again) because player is always late, even though it was player's first time offence. see the contradiction?


ergh. i cant believe how pissed i am these days. unpiss me someone.

and to show that i can really do it.. here's another one! so be prepared to see lots of pics now ya.. since i got camera phone and all~ woo yeah~

this is just a test~ woohoo.. i can post pictures now! 

so blogger isnt that mean after all, my post wasnt deleted.


oh man.. i was watching the trailer for harry potter, and i felt this through me. i just got to watch tha moive. expecto patronus! or something like that.. so who's catching it with me? just not on a school day please.. not at least on a day which i end at eight o' clock. thanks.


oh yeah, i think its quite a disgrace to see myself being linked to some people. i feel its mean to say something but, its not very nice to be seen or related to people who are well..i'm sure people would know what i mean. but let's give them a chance to grow up. right.


freak. i'm going to see a doctor soon. for my knee. and i so dont want to go. i'm damn pissed. my nice mother went to get an appointment for me without my consent. thanks alot man. i know she means well, i'm just not willing to go today. then when she asks me a question, i answered, then she accused me of being rude. right~ well done man. i'm getting used to such stuff anyway. piss me off will you, piss me off and see me angry.


anyway, lets not get carried away by getting angry. there's much more to life then being angry. like my dear hamster. i swear he's getting old. and getting skinner. its very sad to see him get old, not as active as he used to be. i adore him as each day goes by.

so can anyway help me host some pics?


here's a fabulous song. its like being in love again.


Someone Like Me
Artist:Atomic Kitten


Don't let your head rule your heart
Don't let your world be torn apart
Don't keep it all to yourself
Just let all your emotions run free
With someone like me
Thats they way it should be
Someone like me


I know it's hard
When your feelin' down
To lift your feet up off the ground
We make mistakes
But doesn't everybody
You don't always have
To agree with someone like me
Thats the way it should be
someone like me


We know the story so far
(What you want and who you are)
What you want and who you are(free)
Let all your emotions run free
You don't always have to agree
With someone like me
That's the way it should be
Someone like me
Someone like me

need a new template. who cares to find one for me?


ok.. abit slow to only realise this new format of blogger. what can i say? its jc life and its freaking hectic. can die ah~ anyway, hope to see my friends at the concert, if you havent bought the tickets and last minute want to go, you can always get it at the venue itself yeah? thanks yous~


my classmates said that their first impression of me was that i'm was a no nonsense, damn serious guy. hookay~ i didnt see that coming at all.


thinking of getting contacts, again. should i?


i like:
-talking to alan, he always craps on and brings the conversation on and on.
-talking to roy, he always churns out some seemingly impossible story out from nowhere.
-talking to weijian, sometimes dont like la, because he always makes the good better, the bad worse.
-talking to zat, alot of sense in his words, even though i dont want to admit it.
-sleeping, been needing alot of this these days.
-girls after a run. the flush in their faces are damn sweet.
-drinking water/milo/soya bean milk. seems to be a fetish these days.
-crap sessions. with anybody. except for some mentioned below.
-band camps. with twe. and maybe some nice people form mjcsb. some, really only some.


i hate:
-stupid people who rush onboard the mrt without letting the passengers out first. i was nearly stuck onboard thanks to this twp stupid teenagers girls who was so auntie in the quest to find some seats.
-this one is abit mean.. i hate fat girls who like to think they are damn attractive and talk too loud in public. like hello, you're the last person the whole world wants to see, not that they can miss you. so quit wearing that short skirt, and shut up.
-girls who smoke. total turn off.
-old people who think the whole world owes them a living. we probably do, but its not your right to cut queues and push people around.
-people who put their bags on bus/mrt seats. for goodness sake. they're for people to seat if you didnt know? ok, if the bus/mrt is empty, its quite fine, but if its on a bloody crowded mrt/bus, can you have some common sense to let some others seat so that there'll be more space around for people to board?
-people who seat on the outer seat of the bus. seems to me that you're damn selfish or that you think you're too great for anyone to sit beside you.
-people who fake this stupid accent and bootlick people, resort to underhand means to get to high places. sorry, no votes for you, you shallow short freak.


a little disclaimer, to anybody who reads this and feels offended, oops? and to anybody who is from the instituition that i'm seeking education now, judge me in whatever way you want.

if people cant write, they shouldnt get a blog. and its not for cool sake that people are having blogs. zat, seriously, your name is mentioned everywhere know on people blogs. haha todl you you're a celebrity.


for heavens sake, please, dont make yourself sound anymore mundane than you are already. (not you zat)


anyway, i cant wait to wear the new shirt i bought today for my concert. think it makes me look mature, something i need i think. plus it costs 60 freaking bucks, it has to be nice. watch out for me on my concert day. that is if you are going. which very little people i know are. sad, but aint their fault thanks to the stupid people who booked the hall on a monday night.. speaking of which, i witnessed a most moving speech by one of my band t.i.c. on thursday night. it went:


"you all must sell your tickets!! if not, who wil you play to? 40 people, the teachers and the principal? what will ms sia feel? you all must go in with the attitude that you're the best band performing, on that night in singapore! that's the attitude! if not, how to go for syf? if you all can find another band that is better than you that night with the repertoire you're playing that night, i'll personally buy the 800 tickets myself!"


whatever.


like hey, tickets are always faster sold in the last few weeks, so relax k? and the thing about the best band, hello, we're the only band to be "clever" enough to be performing on a monday night during the school term, so most probably we'll be the only band that night, not much people to be compared to eh? if you're looking for a better band, give the scores to my sec sch band(2003). they'll gladly play it twenty times better than us now. and i dont think you can buy the tickets after the concert is over dude, oh, can you even afford it? joke.

if you people could see some of the people present during t(his) speech, you could see eyes being rolled all around the room like marbles. please la, dont embarass youself liao can?


oh, remind me to show you my SL on the concert night. not for any good reason or anything ya, just take a look. joke.

doh.


somehow, currently when i browse through people blogs these days, there's an increased no. of people being in a problem or another, and i find it weird and amusing when i read people who say "i dunno what to..having relationship problem la...wonder if my crush likes me anot.." the usual. i cant really say i'm guilty of that, cos i'm writing on behalf for my friend. heh.


anyway, speaking on the above. in a way or another, it seems to be something of a very far past behind me. its been a long time since i've ever had such thoughts or any other types of them. my mind since to be in periods of blanks, and sometimes i forget what i was or have been doing at a certain time or day. hm. my life have become such a routine, from waking up at 6.05, bathing at 6.10, leaving house at 6.38, boarding the bus at 6.40, boarding the mrt at 6.50, reaching school at 7.25. (all these times are in am). then follows a insane day in school. belgh. i'm becoming a computer prgramme now.. how i missed secondary school days.


you know, life is funny. as in, look, when you were in pri 6, you felt like you were the king of the school. but when you moved on the sec1, you were crap. when you moved on to sec 4, you were king of the school, but when you moved on to jc1, you're crap again. how many times is this going to repeat? countless i guess. looks like i'll never be the one at the top or the best at anything. zat(sorry for putting your name down here) remember you told me among the gang i was the one with the emotional and the one who loves? now iit doesnt apply to me, so what am i now?


a little secret. i think my school lab com has been infected with the sasser virus while i was using it. so.. whoops? it wasnt me~ serious!


try this. stare at your friend face for very long. (ex for 3 mins.) you'll realise there's more to the face than you think there is. really.

Ignorance is bliss... is it not?


make a choice.


knowing the truth and hurting yourself now, get it over and done with, or not finding out the truth, and live with bliss for the next few months.


which one?


i havent enjoyed this weekend one bit. i've a friend who had a problem, relationship problem, like the one i had. frankly, i would say its totally his fault, but before hearing his side, is it right to do so?


"can you believe i'm stoning now?" that's what he said when she was talking to him, asking him what was the problem.


"i just cant be myself around you, i can only be myself around my friends" that wasnt how it was in the beginning, why now?


"i feel not at ease with you" then why like her in the first place????


happiness is given not by those around you, but by yourself, by accepting the reality and moving on with life. its sad to hear her cry, for i have not since a long time ago, sec 1? i spent the night on the phone with her, comforting her. she talked about the past, her beautiful times she had, and i talked about mine. we talked about the things we had, and how different and same at the time we were. i saw myself in her and him, while i saw "her" in him and her too. i questioned myself, are we really having alot of similarities in terms of problems and love life, or is this a common problem that happens to all that who's in love at this age? so that's why people always say that we're not ready for relationships at this age huh? bummer to them.


i'm losing my touch in blogging. maybe its my life getting to drained to talk, to blog. excite me again.