Its Sour.

What is? what i'm feeling inside now.

Its time we moved on from the past.
yeah, this is so different from my previous entry.

today morn, i cleared away all my stuff, or the things i don't need anymore. ex chinese papers and alot more papers. i saw and found alot of old surprises, that i thought i've lost forever, or never knew it was there. even found five bucks~ there were alot of funny memories i found, and emotions too. felt stupid cos i didn't want to let go of some stuff, there's this fear that i might need them again. but i've just learnt to let go, things would not always be there for you, thus the need to cherish them. its too late now to cherish some things that you've neglected and took for granted. this's one lesson i learnt the hard way.

time for lunch i guess..or whatever that is better..

someone loves you.. me!

yeah its corny, but what the heck, its my blog and i say what i want to.
its hard to have a conversation, if only one is talking and the other and just not responding. as the saying goes,' a clap needs two to sound', how can one possibly try to even engage small talk when the other's not trying? amazing how people can live alone for years, without anyone to converse with? then again, maybe its just me being sensitive lah, like always.

decided to write this down somewhere, something i thought about for a very long time, its about myself, and what i think i am.

I'm/I:
rash, making decisions and jumping to conclusions quite oftenly.
indecisive at alot of times.
brooding abt the past, letting the bad memories haunt and irk me alot.(that's why i go nuts at times.)
forgive and let go grudges, but yet tries but never forgets a bad memory.
can do most things, but never excel at anything i've ever done.(this is so true man.)
suffering from low morale at times, like now.
wondering if i deserve what i have now, good and bad.
want to let people really understand who Rickson is, but sadly none did.
hates the hypocritcal side of me, but neither do i like the honest side of me, always brings me trouble if i say the truth.
pissed.
yup..that's enough for now. Don't worry i'm fine.

I'm getting all excited again.

don't know if its i'm over reacting or what, but i've ideas for a all new amazing race! but the problem is that, what if there are too many peeps who wanna play? hm.. so i'm calling out to all those who want to play please submit your names here, and you'll either be a racer, or station master.. bwhahaha...

here are some locations for a new race:

suntec city, esplanade, city link, causeway point(?), ikea or queensway shopping centre, changi airport, and katong mall or roxy square. players must be willing to play for mrt fares k? and maybe buy lunch yourself.. right now, the big walk's going on. tell me how it went k guys? thankew~!