Let me think.

this thought crossed my mind one day when i was walking home across a carpark.
if i died, what would happen? would it make a difference? no no no, i'm not trying to be ego and say that people must remember me, but i just pictured my death, as a passing event. how is life after death? i wonder, if any of my surrounding people passed away, how would i react and take it. is heaven up there? is there life after death? i'm sounding real egyptian...

my phone's being screwing up these days. get abit frustrated when smsing, ends up getting weird words, so if u sms me, and not getting replies, its prob i'm busy trashing my phone.. but, i still love it, coz i've just found the cvool wap function of my phone.. can't wait to see the bill.. shudders in though of the amt..

been reading the band syf forum, lots of crap and trash there though. what's the stuff abt too much golds and judges being incompentent? well, it was quite a shock for some bands, but its no reason to defame and crap up the other bands who got gold? hm.. i'm sounding like one of them now.. argh.

It just ain't the same, always unchanged
New days are strange, is the world insane
If love and peace is so strong
Why are there pieces of love that don't belong
Nations droppin' bombs
Chemical gasses fillin' lungs of little ones
With the ongoin' sufferin' as the youth die young
So ask yourself is the lovin' really gone
So I could ask myself really what is goin' wrong
In this world that we livin' in people keep on givin' in
Makin' wrong decisions, only visions of them dividends
Not respectin' each other, deny thy brother
A war is goin' on but the reason's undercover
The truth is kept secret, it's swept under the rug
If you never know truth then you never know love

and please comment on the pics, captions or whatever you feel like k?

sore throats..

from all the screaming we did, it'll be amzing if we didn't. it took us a long time to do it, but we prevailed. we did it, we achieved our distinction we hungered for. nope i'm not going to praise is abt the times we practiced very hard, the times we endured chagrin from everyone else, the times where things didn't seem to work out. but, i'm going to thank the people who made this happen. Temasek Wind Ensemble. amazing isn't it not? the surge of glory, joy and pride of getting this medal. but my thanks today, are directed to the closer people to me from the band.

to my best junior cheryl, who braved a horrible sore throat and aching neck to perform her part of music.
to my greatest senior liza(lisa), who was and still is our guiding light.
to my junior who made me very proud, suan sen, who taught me more than i taught him and improved our cornet section.
cornets, we did it.

weijian, remember the time we threw coins into the fountain and wishing? our wish came true. you did it. under your guidance, the band succeeded. i know ive been repeating this alot, but i guess, with our different paths, we achieved more?
not forgetting zat, who really pulled the band together, with his rah-rah ness? nuff said.

all right. a picture is worth a thousand words. relieve the excitement with the pics. they're up!

Believe.

once again, how time has flown and passed. its been long since i've blogged, and its thanks to my mom who's been on the prowl for me for not using the com.(she's not home now).

some thoughts and events that have been swimming around my head these days.
self practice thingy. i really really think, if we are forcing people to go for it, it so defeats the purpose. maybe that's the culture, but i'm not saying we should stick to it, and maybe this constant pushing will rub off into some? let's just pray.
racial harmony day. amazingly, 3/4 of my class were clad in their racial costumes. wow, did the band look good or what? take a look at the pics, updated, and highlight of the the day, timothy and his chinese costume! man, its just so cute! not forgetting some classmates fabulous figure. wow~ sad thing tt not everyone was as spontanous though. was not really happy at the fact that i realised that some band members have no initiative, and are really retarded in recieving orders?

life's being nice these days, except for my occassional frustration, everything's fine. i believe in everything now. i believe that there can be miracles. i believe that life is not that nutty after all. i believe that everything has a cause, effect and purpose. believe in the dreams we all share and make.

why am i preaching?? weird things happen these days. let's just pray and believe for band judging. (wait, i dun even pray)

Scars.

i'm ok peeps. scared though, but i don't mind. this scar is one that will remind me of furthur mistakes and pray that i don;t repeat them. thanks to all who had given me support in one way and another. thanks zat and ling esp. and thank you to you for giving me a chance..

no thanks to you. you suck. i'm beginning to dislike you again. you think you're being funny by quoting my blog? you think its fun? tell you, its not. what's your problem? you expect people to be sensitive to you, yet, you are one of the worst insensitive people i've ever seen. just rot off and die. i may still talk to you, smile, but don't expect me to be your buddy.

Let Me Cry.

mistakes i've made can't be worst than this.
Just let me cry.