your life is in you

have you ever looked at yourself in the mirror recently?

not for combing your hair, or shaving your moustache. but really look at yourself. how are you now? have you grown, changed or even looked older? on the outside it may seem that, but what abt the inside? have you changed to a entirely different person, so much so that you can't even recognise yourself? take a good look at your older photos, and reflect.

how much have you changed? have you mellowed down, or have you opened up? or have you been so emotionally erractic that you can't ever decipher youself?
its been 4 years in secondary sch, 6 in primary, 2 in kindergarden. so much i've changed. i know i've changed, but to how much? tell me please.

frustrated

maybe not a lot, but quite abit.
i was doing my chinese paper two today. writing and straining myself to recall the measly words that i studied so hard, i felt a growing frustration in me. why must we go through this idiotic way of testing? we shld be based on character, personality and skills, not what chemicla eqautions or sine rule?? so i could not take it anymore, slammed my pen down, tore my paper, and walked out of the hall.

not. but that was what i would have done if i could, or if i wouldn't be slaughtered when i got home. argh. what the hell. our education system is weird. people study their nuts off, just because everyone else does so. project work is another piece of crap. not that it helps or anything, its lame and totally useless in life, just like nearly anything in school. but somehow, i would still want to go to jc, and continue this crazy race to see who can get so many A's so that we can get our names into the newspaper and all those eggheaded freaks and kopitiam uncle and market aunties would think that geniuses are made by drinking more chicken essence and by reading books over and over again. ha. let them study, and see if any of their formulaes apply.

i hope you dun mind, i hope you dun mind, that i put down in words(or pics)
aw rite.
new pics are uploaded.
so pls pls take a look.
(this is an edited old msg)
anyway, suddenly i like singing alot, even though i can't sing. so bear with mi abit and help mi on abit too k? hah..

The Greatest You'll Ever Learn Is To Love And Be Loved In Return

Moulin Rouge, set in 1899, a story abt love, and love will live forever..."love is like oxygen, love is a many splendid thing, love lift us up where we belong, all you need is love!"

haiz.. tis a true wonderful movie. wacthed it today, thanks to Chong Hu who bought the Vcd for mi.. wonder if anything like the movie ever happens. not that i really want it to, with all that sadness and tragedy.
but then again, love is something that no one really know eh? i'm not really going to stress myself abt this now, coz i just had my exam today. argh.. its so soon. realised i can't keep up at times, maybe i shld really study hard this year? right now, i don't know what to type, maybe coz i'm watching moulin rouge at the same time? god its a powerful movie..

here's a poem from the author of firebird. think its nice but could someone explain it to me?

When you are old and gray and full of sleep,
Nodding by the fire, take down this book,
And slowy read, and dream of the soft look
Your eyes had once, and of their shadow deep.
How many loved your moments of glad grace
And loved your beauty with love false or true,
But one man loved the pilgrim soul in you.
And loved the sorrow of your changing face.