Euphoria of happiniess..

i'm so happy!! hah.. today is one of the happiest of my life. my jjuniors made so proud.. all of them. AHHAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHH... this rocks to the max! they are the young 'babies' that i brought up with my hands.. now they're all grown up and quite successful, all of them. especially Suan Sen, Eugene, Malorie and all the rest. all those sec 3 will be leading the band into a new era, a new step into the new year, when it comes, and bring it into a higher level. they are a batch of elite people who are extremly capable of doing a great in whatever they do. i'm so sure abt them. take for example, Suan Sen.
Suan Sen, he was a trumpter who already how to play the trumpet, but did not show off and yet taught me how to play it and improve myslef humbly. he never show off and is a great leader. he's EXCELLENT.
Cheryl, a shy and quiet girl when the band, but now, she's not that quiet, and lttle Bitchy.. heh. a nice and warm girl to tok to.. fun too.
Today was suansen's birthday too and his birthday present was a pleasant surprise. both of them. felt so happy for him. all grown up now.

all in all, the happiness in me, is cannot be describle, not forgeting, today's the 10th month..
BAnd ROcks!

Short post here

went out with sam and gene today. had a short talk, abt a 'thing'
i realised how attached i am to this 'thing' now. just thinking abt the stepping down, the leaving of the 'thing', makes tears well up in my eyes. i'm serious. this 'thing' , was introduced to me by my sis, and since then, it has been a big part of my life. music was never my forte. it still isn't. but its the passion i have for it, that makes me not to skip any practise, not one, since sec one, till now. its that passion for it, that makes me attend a practise, even though how tiring a day i had in sch, knowing that ppl i love and care for are all there, waiting and making merry music with me. its the passion for it, and the wonderful people. that bonded me, opened the tender young 12/13 year old, and help mature me into a young teenager.
i owe this 'thing' a debt. this 'thing' brought me love, happiness, friendship, skills i would never learn outside anywhere. this 'thing' taught me how to see the better side of people, how to deal with emotions, and how to love something, someone, somebody, anything, anyone,anybody, everything, everyone and everybody.

this 'thing' is called, Band.
Temasek Wind Ensemble practicularly.
like the name suggests, we are a band of brothers, sisters and family. 'banded' together regardless of differences, race and sex.

so to those who ask why band members never seem to skip band, this is why. its our life. its my life.

Emotions flooding around?

been seeing lots of happiness, sadness, anger around me these days. just read my fellow frens blogs. everyone's talking abt it. you'll see the dfiferent type of emotions all around, some making u smile along with them when they blogged it out, or so may make u wonder why are they so angry, hopin that i or you could relive them of this anger in them.
all this made me wonder, what about my emotion? how am i feeling right now? am i happy, sad or glad? i'm 16 already, another year, another tear? or another responsibilty with the maturity? as the quote go, or my quote "age is a very high price to pay for maturity." at times, when i help solve others problems, i wonder if i can do that, can i do the same to myself, solve my own probs? its not that i have alot of problems, but maybne, its just me overseeing the problem or ignoring my problems. maybe this is why i rarely get angry? am i nice when i'm not conciously, or do i do it just for being nice sake? am i fake? i dunno.
song i've been hearing.
It's all because of you,
I'm feeling sad and blue
You went away,
Now my life is just a rainy day and I love you so,
How much you'll never know
You've gone away and left me lonely.

Untouchable memories
Seem to keep haunting me
Another love so true,
That once turned all my gray skies blue
But you disappeared,
Now my eyes are filled with tears
And I'm wishing you were here
With me soaked with love all my thoughts of you
Now that you're gone I just don't know what to do
If only you were here,
You'd wash away my tears
The sun would shine,
Once again you'll be mine all mine
But in reality, you and I will never be cos
You took your love away from me.

Chorus
Girl, I don't know what I did to make you leave me
But what I do know is
That since you've been gone there's such an emptiness inside,
I'm wishing you to come back to me.

If only you were here,
You'd wash away my tears
The sun would shine,
Once again you'll be mine all mine
But in reality,
You and I will never be cos
You took your love away from me.
Oh -- Baby you took your love away from me.

School's starting..

a yeah or a boo?
in abt 24 hrs, i'll be in sch, learining chem at this time. argh. not exactly a very welcoming thought. esp the teacher is ms (i hate like crap) woon. but den again, i'll be in the company of my nutty friends, laughing our heads of at teachers' stupid ways,sometimes, making jokes abt rino.. haiz. that's life? argh... where's band!! seems that band may not be resuming, how! i cannot take it anymore.. the lonliness of playing alone(huh??).. very lonely.. as we all noe, people are social beings, who needs company, i am not an exception.
guess i'll have to be resuming to my early sleep, early wake lifestyle again. no more late nights, no more, okay, maybe less gaming. more studying. see ya around abit. this must be the most boring post ever..

party time!

what a time we had. yesterday, was zhijian's birthday! Aaron (or Zat?) organised a potluck party, in which everyone brought food, yummy.. details of who brought what, pls refer to guangrong's blog, even though he forgot all abt me, who brought the eating utensils. audrey and i were the earliest, reaching at 5.10 under Eastwood, aka Zhijian's housey. followed by junior bitch, Eugene, then the rest cannot remember liao. the most impact making person that day, had to be lynn, with her new funky, abit boyish, but j-pop(?) hairstyle.(refer to pics). man, she still looked cute and lynnish, but she was kinda quiet throughout the party. most of the gang waited downstairs and signed the beautiful pictures in a picture frame with us in it, which was a present for the birthday boy. the lamest senior, ruiwen came too! haha.. wearing a shirt which spelled 'xtra' into 'trax', he brought sushi... so little sia. heh. then as i said, mrs ho made a grand entrance, being the latest and came empty handed. zat, mrs ho and i went to cold storage to find some food for her to buy, while zat blocked the way of a lady twice, and mrs ho lamenting and cursing the bus driver of 14 who came late apparently. malorie and cheryl came too, bringing tasty pasta, which were wiped out first. sorry to juling, coz i didn't eat any of ur salad ah.. i not veggie eater hor.. all the food brouht were excellent man. after eating, we all settled down and chattered away, lead by the two oldest and bitchiest, no other than Mrs Ho and Mr Zat. Aaron strutted around ala porn star and man hunt model, drawing laughs from the duo. this was one of the best parties i ever had, even though its mild, but the joy is unable to be described. had so much fun. and the pics are uploaded into my yahoo pics folder, the link is still upthere, take a look.
love ya all.

Another Week Of Torture

its official. another week before school reopens. sucks man. when are we going to have band!! can't take it anymore. i'm missing so many people. so so so many of them, so so so badly. argh. blegh. then, thanks to the teachers of temasek secondary school, who seem to be afrad that we will not have anything to do at home and will be bored to death, have given us lots of hmwk.. whoopee. its so exciting i'm falling asleep. damn the homework. damn those who give us homework. (oops).
been reading slam dunk. the excitment that i get when i read it. even its only pictures and words, it still sends the adrenadline running in my blood. especially when ever Sakuragi scores the winning shot. the tingle it sends down my spine when the crowd cheers, unexplainable.
read this story, abt how love came abt.
A long time ago, before the world was created and humans set foot on it for the first time, virtues and vices floated around and were bored, not knowing what to do.
One day, all the vices and virtues were gathered together and were more bored than ever.
Suddenly, Ingenious came up with an idea: "Let's play hide and seek!"
All of them liked the idea and immediately Madness shouted: "I want to count, I want to count!"
And since nobody was crazy enough to want to seek Madness, all the others agreed.
Madness leaned against a tree and started to count: "One, two, three..."
As Madness counted, the vices and virtues went hiding.
Tenderness hung itself on the horn of the moon,
Treason hid in a pile of garbage.
Fondness curled up between the clouds and Passion went to the centre of the earth.
Lie said that it would hide under a stone, but hid at the bottom of the lake, whilst Avarice entered a sack that he ended up breaking.
And Madness continued to count: "...seventy nine, eighty, eighty one..."
By this time, all the vices and virtues were already hidden - except Love. For undecided as Love is, he could not decide where to hide. And this should not surprise us, because we all know how difficult it is to hide Love.
Madness: "...ninety five, ninety six, ninety seven..."
Just when Madness got to one hundred, Love jumped into a rose bush where he hid.
And Madness turned around and shouted: "I'm coming, I'm coming!"
As Madness turned around, Laziness was the first to be found, because Laziness had no energy to hide.
Then he spotted Tenderness in the horn of the moon, Lie at the bottom of the lake
and Passion at the centre of the earth.
One by one, Madness found them all - except Love.
Madness was getting desperate, unable to find Love. Envious of Love, Envy whispered
to Madness: "You only need to find Love, and Love is hiding in the rose bush."
Madness grabbed ! a wooden pitch fork and stabbed wildly at the rose bush. Madness stabbed and stabbed until a heartbreaking cry made him stop. Love appeared from the rose bush, covering his face with his hands.
Between his fingers ran two trickles of blood from his eyes. Madness, so anxious to find Love, had stabbed out Love's eyes with a pitch fork.
"What have I done! What have I done!" Madness shouted. "I have left you blind! How can I repair it?"
And Love answered: "You cannot repair my eyes. But if you want to do something for me, you can be my guide."
And so it came about that from that day on, Love is blind and is always accompanied by Madness.

how true? anyway, sorry to anyone whom i may seem mean or very hostile, coz i a real softie inside(bwahahaha)
enjoy the week guys.

What's your perspective?

so, is the glass half full, or half empty? what's ur view? or i rather call it, perspective.
its the perspective that make people judge. agree or disagree? let's say, an example. the Iraq war. is it right to declare war? should we support the americans or iraqis? if we look from the view points of the civillians in iraq, war shld be stopped, as the innocents are harmed; but from the americans' point of view, the iraq seems a threat to him, which is endangering lives? i don't know. which or whose perspective are you looking at from?
everything has two sides to it. like a coin. flip it. if it lands on the heads, look at it, is it the right side, is it the correct side? what if it lands on tails? is this the correct one instead? this is what i think, should this be the way we anaylse and look at problems before we make our judgement. how many times have we judged people just by their looks? should we look deeper? then again, first impression counts alot too yah? perhaps that's why the saying goes ' clothes make the man' but to contradict it, ' don't judge a book by its cover'? maybe next time before we say someone is an asshole, a piece of crap, a loser, or maybe even before we praise anyone, or maybe when we decide who's right or wrong, look at both sides.
small advice, to those horrible incidents, lok on the lighter side of the coin, you'll feel better.
what if, we flip the coin so many times, and it lands on its edge?