Premier 16

wow. it was so fast. the coming of the concert, the concert itself, and the ending of the concert.
the prep of the concert wasn''t done well, but still, we managed to do the banner so well. guesss band mems have a kanck of doing tt eh? thanks and thanks to all who helped with the banner, non band mems like lee kheng, alan and debbie, extra thanks man~ shld get a award..
the concert itself, 2 hrs? only one and a half... farni man. the interval was like 20 mins into the concert. excellent. wonder if any of the audience knew cheryl and i screwed up Together.. blegh. most probably, the best pieces played was American Riversongs and Latin Gold, or so i think. oh, also thanks to all those who came, like the greenview people, all the ex band mems who all commented i grew taller (whahahaha), classmates, and parents. when it ended, it was another big event for me... only those few know ah... heheh. success.. feeling on the top of the world now. though i'm sorry tt couldn't go eat with u.. so sorry.
anyway, when the gang proceeded to mac, we had a hell of a time. even though we didn't know wad was going on on the other side of the table, our side left us laughing in stitches. with the arrival of chong hu and damien, i cannot take it ah.. stomach pain.

all in all, great job done. to all who came and helped out. to all who gave an appluase when we ended, and all who helped us along. thanks and thanks..
moving on to SYF Central Band JUDGING (not competition).

Freak.

wad's the point? i tried. we tried. but like no avail leh. some times the human mind can realy be weird. how someone can seem so distant when your perspectve change. bad mood, ha. so wad. its not like the whole world offended you. den again, it might be my perspective.

so freaked out. horrible sore throat. now can't speak.. hurts like crap. blegh. even swallowing savlia hurts. double blegh.

you said u forgave. i don't feel it. yes you may still be hurt. maybe i've done the best on my side. maybe i haven't. i remembered when i forgave. it wasn't like this. i didn't try to make someone guilty. i didn't hate or get pissed. den again, it wasn't your fault. or was it? tt's the past. but this is now. pls do not scold others who try to interfere but yet they know nuts? they're not at fault. its mine for putting you in such bad position that made them think tt way. i didnt' mean to. and i hope you know. you may be too mad at me to read this. but i just hope what ever happened is over, and is just something we'll remember silently. but sometimes. pls really think on your part too.

so wanna curse. but that's not me.
freak.
all i know is. i'll be living from day to day. future?
that's for tomorrow.
tomorrow comes today.

Recovered. i think.

yep. i fought and struggled, and kicked off the sick state of me, but now got abit chest pain... esp during class today, such a sharp pain in the chest. ow.. and during band too, which was why i couldn't play out much, so sorry guys..

saw the photo taken. i tink i look ugly smiling.. yuk. shld just stick to smiling.. amszing how i look in photos. i rarely really look at how i look. as in deep inside. apperance is one thing, character is another. so wad if you are Brad Pitt, yet u have the worst personality and is a jerk? so what u are a hot babe? but u dissed off and is evil within? do you get my drift ppl? anyway, someone have just woke mi up. i realised, or we realised, that some people are really only caring for those in their clique, but not the whole band as a whole. unfairness? kinda.. its real sad to know such things happen, whne we keep saying we have a great bond. somehow, i'm actually disgusted.

i've really seen my ways of critising guang rong so badly that time. apologetic. but once again, i'm not alone.
jokes are jokes, but to some others, it really cuts, slices and dices. you may have a great group of friends, and popular, but the person who is trying to fit in, because he or she wants to have fun too, like you yourself. but why go to the extend of making fun of the person, and hurting him or her? the person may not show it, but its not right yes? its really mean to crack a joke on someone's expense. i won't hate you, but just have a total diff way of looking at you. after hearing or reading what alan wrote, i'm not even sure i really belong with all of you. i've really changed. from sec one to now, i've changed so much. for the better or worse? its weird how i can hang out with you all, talk so much, but still feel left out. blegh.

question to you zat.
is it me or are u very protective over guang rong? maybe i'm touchy, maybe i'm wrong, but dun think i'm crying for attention here, just wondering real hard.

and to anyone reading this, if you can't take what i write, dun bother telling me. i wun bother reading what u say too.

anyway, a poem to end.

Twist of dawn and day of light.
The moon beam flickers, come hold me tight.
In love with you a second time, as i lay myslef, to sleep tonight.

Some Quotes

from zat.
Love is like waiting for a bus at Eugene's house. you never that it is there, or whether is it coming soon.
Love is like waiting for a taxi at Zhijian's house. you wait so expectantly it, you see one in sight, only to know it is taken. dissapointment follows.

from weijian.
a leader does not show his weak side.

from juling.
be like mr yong. he rocks.

from guang rong.
live life to the fullest.

from hexian.
NABEI~!

today i was sick.. sad man. hate the feeling.last nite was so horrible. couldn't sleep, dunno why. so uncomfortable. wonder what happened in sch. always when i'm not around, lots of fun stuff happens.. argh. did my frens miss me? hope so.. well judging by the sms i recieved asking y i'm not in sch, they did~( ^ ^ ) wonder can i take drills tml.. next week's the fliming liao.. how how?? whatever it is, hope to see you all tml at band..

Post CNY Posts..

wad a weekend. got angbaos, ate ba kwas and kwei chee. most impt, got to go visiting with my band dudes~ yeah yeah~! it was so rocky rocky.

started off in the morn with a visiting to my grandma's hosue at woodlands. after greeting all my relatives, i left at 12 plus plus, to meet the gang. i'll nv take 168 alone again. its the worst worst slpy ride i've ever had. if i ever have isomia(cannot slp.. dunno how to spell), i'll take that bus. anyway, reach aaron's house, just in time to see the guys alighting from their bus too. went on to proceed to aaron's humble housey filled with his relatives. liked patches alot. sad to say, i didn't get to really enjoy the visiting as much as i though i would. at points i really felt like crying, but to think again, not nice to rite? got over it, not entirely, when we went to zhi's housey. even though it was late, relief to see zhi's smiling and crappy face. at this pt, weijian went home.. sob sob. couldn't take photo together with him.. to think of it, we've nv took one together. got to one day man. moving on to my housey~ it was 10 plus plus liao.. late man. sam and sen so cleverly took to the 7th floor and greeted the wrong house.. bwahahaha.. lucky it wasn't mrs ho's house. had pizza, and alan rested in my room. poor thing tt guy, fell sick on new year. hate that feeling. and he's not the only one with probs. hor lynn?oops.. and my mum thought that wendy was malorie. so like hmm..

alan's back in sch today.. wee... so is timothy..wee.. and J, hu became sick when i left, was in sch too.. wee... great to see you all guys. oh yah, zat, sorry for yesterday, for saying i cannot play loud using cornet. yah lah, i cannot, but for a Trumpter to switch to cornet, even though its easier to play, its still a obstacle and challenge? the feel is just different. forgive mi zat?

I feel it in my fingers I feel it in my toes
Love is all around me and so the feeling grows
It's written on the wind it's everywhere I go
So if you really love me come on and let it show
You know I love you I always will
My mind's made up the way that I feel
There's no beginning there'll be no end
Cause on my love you can depend
I see your face before me
As I lay on my bed
I kinda get to thinking
Of all the things you said
You gave your promise to me
And I gave mine to you
I need someone beside me
In everything I do


It's written in the wind everywhere I go
So if you really love me come on and let it show
Come on and let it show
Come on and let it
Come on and let it show

Gong Xi Fa Cai~

new's year here~! my fave holiday in the whole year! had such a blast yesterday. started off quite slow, but in the ened, we were playing cards games.. losing 40 cents in total. not alot eh?

had a reunion lunch 2 days ago. was late, sorry guys~ before that went to primary sch to meet my teachers. all real bitchy. can't believe the things they remembered.. like the camp video, the photo, and " i think u look better in modern clothes than traditional costumes"? sorry ms kasrina. btw she's a pioneer of tms. heh. got real wet, all thanks to the rain.

the new year is really losing its atmosphere liao. i remember the days when the whole family wouldcome over to my house, and have a great deal of noise and fun with the kids. man, those days are long over. or is it because we've all grown up? i think so. all the little kids(us) have became teenagers, adults, all with minds of their own. no more the "mum can i have some sweet?" type. wow. once again, how fast time flies.

anyway, guys, i maybe can go with u'all to visiting, but most prob in late afternoon. like 3, 4 plus. pardon me k? pls bring camera.. i wanna take photos~!